Sunday, August 22, 2010

Blessings

God's blessings can come in very unusual ways sometimes. They seem so far from being a blessing that we miss what God is trying to do. Obviously, when good things happen it's really easy to say, "Wow! That was such a blessing!" God's blessings can come in other forms too. God might take something or someone away from us and at the time it seems like He is punishing us or has just forgotten about us. God can see what we can't. He knows what is waiting for us down the road, and He knows what is best. God wants only the very best for us. His plan is full of blessings if we will only trust His perfect will.

I went for a very long time ignoring God's still small voice and put off when I would start listening and obeying. I knew some of the choices I had made were wrong, but sometimes love for a person can make you forget how much greater God's love is. I cared more about having this person in my life than I cared about doing what the Lord wanted me to do. God's plan is ALWAYS best, but I couldn't accept that at the time. I let someone else control all my thoughts, feelings, and emotions. I thought I knew exactly how my life was going to turn out. I liked it that way, but God knew that I would be missing so many wonderful things if I continued down that road. So God allowed that person to be taken out of my life. At the time, I literally thought that I would not be able to go on living. The sadness and loneliness I felt at that time in my life was the worst feeling I have ever felt. Before, I was able to look 4 or 5 years down the road and imagine what my life would be like. Then, all of the sudden, I couldn't even imagine my future. It was like my dreams and hopes for the future were just erased and a blank slate was all that was left. I was devastated. I kept wondering, "Why would a loving God bring someone into my life for such a long time just to take them away?" But God doesn't control who our friends and companions are. I didn't have to be with this person for all those years. In fact, if I had listened to God more and my heart less, then I would have saved myself a lot of heartache and pain. Even though I was hurting, I knew that God allowing this person to be taken out of my life was a blessing. I knew that God had just saved me from continuing to go down the wrong road--a road full of struggles and conflict. I am so excited to see what is on this new road I'm on now! Of course I will have my share of struggles and conflict, but going through them with God while I'm following His will is so much easier than facing them alone. I'm not worried about the past, the bad choices and mistakes I've made. God has great things in store for me down this road. I know this because He says in His word, "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland."(Isaiah 43:18-19) What a comfort and a blessing from God! I know God has a plan for my life and He can even use my mistakes for His glory. No one is too far gone for God to use. I went down the wrong road for a while, but I can get right back on the straight and narrow path and take the Lord's hand and start following after Him once again.

1 comment:

  1. Hannah, I heard your heart speaking in this post. It is not easy to be vulnerable and admit our mistakes, but growth happens when we do and we become stronger for the rest of the journey. Saint Augustine said "He was within, and we mistakenly sought Him without." Deep within us is the Christ calling us to yield to Him and find our peace in His will. You are on the way to that peace.
    GDad

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